“Winter Solstice: Yule, Midwinter, Alban Arthuan, Forth Station of the Year/St. Thomas
The Druidic Alban Arthuan, and Christian St. Thomas Day, when the poor are traditionally given money or presets. In former times the needy could ask for money, a practice known as “thomasing” or mumping.” The fourth station of the year signifies enlightenment, when the light is reborn within the womb of darkness.”
— The Pagan Book Of Days, Nigel Pennick
Saint Thomas the Apostle has always been an anchor for my belief. Doubt is not a weakness in believing in something bigger and Real; faith can not exist without Doubt.
There is no way to search for the Light without recognizing the Dark. There is no way to build one’s intuition for Love and Grace without building discernment of what may be damaging. In all old stories, and our own story in the now, there is no way to resurrect without death.
The winter solstice has always been a time of reckoning, in my mind: the Earth goes as far as she dares into that Darkness. She tips her face further and further and reaches deeper and deeper into the night. Each night she stays longer and grows colder and forgets the light a little, going there to learn something, see something, find something; maybe to chill herself into a new form, maybe to steel her mind, maybe to clear out old thoughts and ways. And maybe it is only to see how long she can stand the Dark — to know that she can and survive (and she can).
On this night, she has gone as far as she chooses. One more night and she might have forgotten the light altogether. So, by morning… it’s decided: the days will be longer. She has turned her face back to the Sun. She begins to warm herself. She re-stacks her thoughts, re-sees each thing, begins.
We begin with her.
“This is how I would die
into the love I have for you:
As pieces of cloud
dissolve in sunlight.”
“Be like the sun for grace and mercy. Be like the night to cover others’ faults. Be like running water for generosity. Be like death for rage and anger. Be like the Earth for modesty. Appear as you are. Be as you appear.” ― Rumi
“In the continuum of change, there’s the daily replacing of cells and substance and movement and process. And then there’s transformation, which feels like a paradigm shift. And then there’s transcendence, which feels like light coming into being. And that can only be created, I think, by two people who are on the same wavelength.” — [T.S.]